Another full on lockdown has begun then. Overdue and incompetent in its calling and leaving us entirely dependent on the vaccines to ever get us out of it. A country that literally couldn’t organise track and trace to save its own lives now needs to organise a logistical miracle.
So it’s a day for not ignoring all this, for not carrying on as if nothing is wrong. I’m even typing these notes, the kind I’d normally keep to myself, straight into this blog. Thinking I might even publish them. It’s that kind of day.
Not a day then for setting little personal to do targets and behaving as if everything’s ok. It’s simply not, and we all have every reason to be worried. Because the people in charge of the country aren’t up to the job. Obviously the government aren’t but neither, it seems, are the majority of the political class, along with the machinery of government around them, on the evidence of this past year. Careerist time serving operatives in the majority. The lot of them shown up badly by this crisis. When what’s been needed is competence and thoughtful leadership they simply haven’t had it in them and have been repeatedly shown up and u-turned by us exasperated ordinary people, organising better care and responses for ourselves. Looking after each other despite the dying and disease all around us.
Meanwhile back in politics the left do what they’ve done all my life, which is argue among themselves. And the right who are in power repeatedly allow themselves to be bullied and panicked by the even further right. As corruption rises around them all like it’s another kind of naturally occurring virus. A dangerous situation, as well as depressing.
This being the kind of day when it’s ok to admit to not being ok to each other. Not being some kind of depressed would itself feel wrong today.
So I have, to end on the only positive I can come up with, set myself a little personal to do target after all. I’m going to sort out my tax return. Because along with a walk later on I think that’s all I’m up to today. Tens and units. Anything more complex like PhD work and sociological university theories will have to wait.
Because it’s not that kind of day.